the shiny wrapper of a peaceful dream

I went through everything

in my mind

last night.

an awful case of déjà-vu 

wrapped in the shiny wrapper 

of a peaceful dream.

I tried to untangle the knot

of feelings 

of mistakes

of confusions 

and misunderstandings.

I sifted through the memories

as though through fragile pages

of an old book,

my fingers too afraid to rip the paper

my lips too afraid to breathe the words.

what happened?

what happened?

what happened?

the question reverberates 

through the chambers of my heart

and my head hurts 

trying to find the answer.

surely there’s a clue somewhere

something that can lead me to

The Truth.

what happened, my love?